My Life with a Knife

  • Kevin C.

    Rank #21 of 1949

    Votes: 1726

    About my essay:

    In a perfect world, I’d have more time for family, friends, maybe a little therapy. Turns out, I have plenty of time to cook. I cook well to make THIS world a little more perfect.

 

I don’t call my mother enough. I never notice when my wife gets her hair done. I’ve been known to grin when I make a new waitress cry. My life with a knife is not one of walking around the kitchen spewing kind things to say and words of encouragement.  It is one filled with long hours, stress, and deadlines.  It’s a world where I spend too much time making the rich love my food and too little time letting the people I love enrich my life. In a perfect world, I’d have more time for family, more time for friends, maybe a little time for therapy. Turns out, being a chef, I have plenty of time to cook. So I cook well to make THIS world a little closer to perfect for the people close to me.

My most memorable meals have been an expression of love for the most important people in my life. I know it sounds cliché but for this angry chef all of those extra special ingredients - that splash of truffle oil, that dash of sea salt, that spoonful of duck fat…they’re what pass as tokens of affection from a guy like me. A day in upstate New York ten years ago spent making cassoulet with homemade venison sausage for my girlfriend, now my wife, helped me say “I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” A truffled lobster mac and cheese a few years back in Key Largo for a grief-stricken friend who had just lost a child meant “I’m so sorry for your loss.” An occasional “Porkapalooza Sunday” at home with pork butt and brisket smoking over cherry wood in the back yard and a few cold beers for my friends translates to “Thanks for being crazy enough to put up with me”.

There’s nothing more satisfying to me than watching the face of someone I love take that first bite of something I've made for them. Their eyes get wide and light up. The corners of their mouth curl upwards and they start to chew slowly savoring each second. Then they make that guttural “Mmmmmmmmmmm.” The sound that translates worldwide as “Wow, that’s good!” I can rest easy that night knowing that one satisfied important person in my life knows that I love them.

But I’d be lying if I said I cook well ONLY to express my love. Fame, fortune, ego, pride and a fierce, passionate love for what I do are all good motivators as well.  If you’re not striving to be the best at what you do, why bother right? And let’s face it. If I cooked well only for the people I loved, I’d be out of a job. I just don’t love that many people.

 

comments

Joseph Y.:

Like I've been saying for years....I'ld rather sit on the rocks under my restaurant and do drugs with Tony than I would be on TV with Bobby Flay.   Stay in Boothbay Bobby.

July 23, 2010 Report Abuse
Paul B.:

you go chef kev, good luck

July 30, 2010 Report Abuse
Bridget B.:

This is GREAT Kevin!!   I love how you wrote about your "tokens of affection" and how your "most memorable meals have been an expression of love for the most important people" in your life!  I agree that some of the best memories are those centered around the table filled with amazing food and amazing people. 

It's a gift to be able to express your love and talent in that way!  That being said, go call your mother and go give your wife a compliment on her hair ;)

Good Luck .......and Anthony...... if you read this, (I am a huge fan of yours :)!!! ) and please know that Kevin deserves this win!!!!!!!   

August 1, 2010 Report Abuse
Chelise S.:

Wow - he's #24 now. Absolutly push push push

August 2, 2010 Report Abuse
Amy C.:

Hey guys, Amy here, Kev's wife -- just wanted to say, it's easy to forgive the absent hair comments when I rush home from work or the gym and find Kevin in the kitchen whipping up something delicious. Sitting down for dinner is truly my favorite time of day and our conversation goes something like this, "Mmmmmmmmmm, baby this is SO GOOD! By the way, you love my new hair cut. Can you pour me some more wine please" ;)

August 3, 2010 Report Abuse
Stacy N.:

Sorry kevin just got internet back to vote...love your face

August 5, 2010 Report Abuse
Michaelynn D.:

Hey Anthony... He has 420 votes! wink wink!

August 6, 2010 Report Abuse
Michaelynn D.:

Hey Anthony... He has 420 votes! wink wink!

August 6, 2010 Report Abuse
Taunja F.:

One thing I remember about you Kevin is your passion for cooking when I worked with you in Key Largo.. you have my vote and good luck..

August 6, 2010 Report Abuse
Krista H.:

Nice essay Kevin...Hi Amy!    

 

August 9, 2010 Report Abuse